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the dream that dreams

Once upon a time, I lived in a tiny pond that was filled to the brim with hungry, serious, and dedicated young missionaries. My job was to pastor, steward, and mentor them as they forged into their bright unknown. Inside of the countless conversations with them, about “them” (their pasts, their plans, their pain, their disappointments, their plans, their hopes, their plans, their plans, and their plans), a seldom and select few would actually dare to ask about the things going on inside of me. It was about as frequent as a blood moon, but it did happen.  I knew my role.  There are no regrets.

Interestingly enough, when those few asked, their questions sometimes landed in the general vicinity of, “Do you dream anymore?” The inquiry was not about the dreams of sleep, but the dreams of future—the dreams of “out there.” I would always be taken aback by the question. If I remember correctly, I think I answered with, “I used to… a lot.”   But, that’s not really an answer, is it? Sadly, it was the best I could gather with integrity at that time.

I’ll finish these thoughts after you read the following passage. It’s extremely powerful! Try to let this sink in. It could be valuable to you.

“There is a dream dreaming in us,” a Bushman once told Laurens Van der Post. We are part of a dream, according to this, part of a vision. What is more, we can become aware of it. Although we are far removed from the Bushmen and their vision, it seems we can indeed come to a sense of being dreamed, being seen, being known. Our mind’s desire is to know, to understand; but our heart’s desire is intimacy, to be known, to be understood. To see God with our mind would be to know God, to understand God; but to see God with our heart would be to have a sense of being known by God, of being understood by God.

 If there is a dream dreaming us, it will be God’s vision of us, and if we have a sense of being part of that dream, it will be our heart’s vision of God. Nicholas of Cusa in his Vision of God, while speaking of our vision of God, speaks even more of God’s vision of us. He has it that our seeing God consists of our having a sense of God seeing us: to see God is to see one who sees; it is to have an experience of being seen. It is like looking at one of those portraits, he says, where the eyes are so contrived as to follow the beholder wherever he moves. No matter where the beholder stands, the eyes of the portrait seem to be looking at him. Or better, we could say, it is like feeling the gaze of another person, feeling the gaze without seeing the other’s eyes. Or it can be like meeting the gaze of another. Or it can even be like looking into the eyes of another and seeing there the pupil, the pupilla, the “little doll,” the tiny image of oneself reflected in the other’s eyes.”

 From The Reasons of the Heart by John S. Dunne

rubbleheapMy non-answer of the question, however, was true. I did used to dream a lot. But, if I’m to be honest and forthright, I must say that my dreams at that time probably had nothing to do with the dreams of God inside of me. My dreams were saturated with selfish ambition, conceitedness, and propped up with all the under-girding of an over-inflated self-ego. Slap enough religion on all of that, and you can hide most anything. All of those dreamed towers have to fall. And make no mistake, mine did. I haven’t sat in disappointment in a very long time, but if you pick through the rubble and don’t ignore it, you’ll begin to figure out that it had to happen. And, if you actually get yourself settled down in enough peace, you’ll begin to genuinely appreciate that God didn’t allow the thing to stand proud for too long.

The truth sets you free. Dig out from under a collapsed tower you built with your own dreams, and you’ll consider where you stand once another is built. There is another dream to consider—the dream inside of us that we didn’t manufacture. It’s the dream sourced from another realm that is dreaming for our purpose on this tiny orb. It’s uncluttered with the expectations of man’s ego and influence of what “might sell.” It’s something totally different. That’s the one I’m still waiting on. That’s the dream I want to tap into. I’ve done my shallow waters dreaming. I want the one He is dreaming. The deep.

I don’t believe you can take this one by force. I think it evolves as you evolve. I’m praying for more grace, in order to make the transformations. I am dreaming for the divine dream that dreams. It’s a good place. The right place for me.

Love you all!


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  1. Joseph Rodriguez
    June 5, 2014 at 7:31 am

    Mike… you’ve helped me to understand what I’ve done, what I’ve thought, what I’ve been through, where I’m at, and in some ways, where I’m headed… thanks for your honesty.. I got a lot of “rubble’ piled around my life.. but Oh the value I’m finding in the “rubble”… thanks brother

    • June 5, 2014 at 7:35 am

      You’re a good man. An honorable man. I’m blessed to call you friend. x

  2. June 5, 2014 at 10:32 am

    This is such a good word for the many of us whose dreams seem to have taken a detour. I love the idea of a dream “uncluttered with expectations…, ” the search for something deeper, the dream of God and not man. Thanks for your words! Love you!

    • June 5, 2014 at 11:56 am

      Thanks sweetheart! I’m so proud of you. xxoo

  3. June 5, 2014 at 1:51 pm

    Excellent, most compelling yet! XoX

  4. June 6, 2014 at 4:48 pm

    I’m pretty sure that is where I’m at. I just want His dream for me. I don’t want to go the way of this world and what they say I need to do…I want to do what He whispers and what I see Him doing at every turn, even if it petrifies me. It’s a hard course to sail for sure.

    • June 6, 2014 at 5:21 pm

      That actually requires you to not hyper-ventilate because you don’t have the dream today. That stuff I’m talking about has to download on a timetable that we don’t control. Thanks for checking in!

      • June 6, 2014 at 5:47 pm

        Valid point. Thank you! Breathing easier…

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